It's in my head

I heard this Soul Asylum song in Bed, Bath and Beyond on Sunday when Eric and I purchased our robes.* It has been in my head ever since, and I am concerned about the potential detrimental effects on both my well-being and that of my unborn child.

I suppose I was particularly vulnerable to it having at one point owned the CD and known all the words to the song. In case you missed that stage in your development, here are the lyrics.

Runaway Train
Call you up in the middle of the night
Like a firefly without a light
You were there like a slow torch burning**
I was a key that could use a little turning***

So tired that I couldn't even sleep
So many secrets I couldn't keep
Promised myself I wouldn't weep
One more promise I couldn't keep

It seems no one can help me now
I'm in too deep
There's no way out
This time I have really led myself astray

CHORUS
Runaway train never going back
Wrong way on a one way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I'm neither here no there

Can you help me remember how to smile
Make it somehow all seem worthwhile
How on earth did I get so jaded
Life's mystery seems so faded****

I can go where no one else can go
I know what no one else knows*****
Here I am just drownin' in the rain
With a ticket for a runaway train

Everything is cut and dry
Day and night, earth and sky
Somehow I just don't believe it

CHORUS

Bought a ticket for a runaway train
Like a madman laughin' at the rain******
Little out of touch, little insane
Just easier than dealing with the pain

Runaway train never comin' back
Runaway train tearin' up the track
Runaway train burnin' in my veins
Runaway but it always seems the same*******


*They're glorious and mine has made me late for work every day this week. Somehow having it on makes me care less about being a productive member of society. It is entirely consistent with what I expected but it is nonetheless very powerful.
**In my head, I was singing "blow torch burning"; slightly different connotation.
***What does that mean?
****Oh, to be in high school again.
*****What does this mean?
******This I understand.
*******This is actually a major insight.